That was the biggest disappointment of my life.

I was sitting on my bed wondering what to do. I immediately slipped the whole life, unbelieveble....?! But what could I do...? And I was going to tell you about my day sometimes. I suddenly felt sick by fear. I felt embarrassed to death, standing out side there without thinking anything. I really couldn't think what to say, I pretended to be a quite woman. I realized that all my mistakes, but who knew....?

I fell sick since a few mounths ago, I feel something wrong with me. I can't remember how many times I went to dokter since last year.

Since I got the problems, I didn't care anything anymore. Now I should live by myself. But I am just I am and I will do what I want, that is me.